I didn't know I was going to meet you.....
It just happened. I wasn't really looking for love....I was mostly curious to see what was out there.....I was just exploring with no intentions.....but then suddenly there you were. Your online ad.....I read it....and identified so much with everything you wrote.....We were both in unhappy situations....VERY unhappy...and so.... I sent that first e-mail.....
I was the apprehensive one. I had been adventurous once...but years of misery had robbed me of my spirit....I wasn't the same fun loving fiery girl I had once been....But you changed all of that....In one day...one meeting.....with one kiss.... you rocked my world, and opened me up like a budding rose.... and I have never, never been the same.
Oh You - outgoing, adventurous,bold,strong,driven charming, intelligent, masculine...and handsome you. You were mired in your own brand of misery. You had it once and you lost it all. You lost yourself...You lost your way......You just wanted to be the person you knew you had been so long ago. You wanted to find love...and comfort...
Before I met you I was buried so deeply in my unhappiness I began to feel that maybe my only option was to "check out"... One evening in my office at home I began to count the pills...How many would it take to end the sadness in my soul? I had nothing to look forward to..Nothing to live for. No children to care for. No loving significant other. Only dispair and lonliness...locked into a miserable relationship with a man I did not love.... and an uncertain, bleak future.
I had recently acquired a collection of music and was listening to it while I surfed the net....trying to find out how much it would take at my current body weight to do the job....So I could sleep forever......then a song came on that I had never heard.....and I stopped and listened..... I began to sob.
As I listened, I cried like I have never cried before......Realizing that I had lost myself in the unhappiness of the relationship I was mired in, I had given up on ever feeling love, passion, hope, desire in my life.....I had given up on living......and the song played on as I cried...The song that snapped me out of wanting to end my life.....and ultimately led me to you.
The Dixie Chicks - I Believe in Love
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pceKmManke8
I made a promise to myself
Locked it way deep down inside
Told my heart we'd wait it out
Swore we'd never compromise
Oh I'd rather be alone
Like I am tonight
I'd settle for the kind of love
That fades before the morning light
Silence stared me in the face
And I finally heard it's voice
Seemed to softly say
That in love you have no choice
Today I got the answer
And there's a world of truth behind it
Love is out there waiting somewhere
You just have to go and find it
I believe in love, I believe in love
Love that's real, love that's strong
Love that lives on and on
Yes I believe in love
I believe in love, I believe in love
Love that's real, love that's strong
Love that lives on and on
Yes I believe in love
Yes I believe in love
